can’t plan things for tomorrow

but the time passes anyways 

begrudgingly & blurry 

another year 

another 

.

i’m stuck 

wanting to leave 

& pinned by the guilt of leaving 

i can see the faces peering down 

& it makes me pause 

but suffocation 

is too much as is a

car in ravine  

too weak to do anything 

.

not good hearted 

not good friend 

not caring enough 

of your dreams & past 

that you’ve sprinkled 

about 

not good daughter 

not good sister 

not good 

too selfish 

but everything is so hard 

too hard 

i don’t know how to live 

& with myself 

.

(11/9/25)